It is weekend.

Well, once again, weekend is here. I just got a text from a couch surfing member who I don't know yet, ask me to hang out with her friends. I don't reply to her yet for what my answer is. Since I can't drink, and the way of they hanging out is drinking, I am not sure if I can follow the flow.

Socialize is a vital component of life, yes, I know. However, doing something that I can't do is also bad for me. I realize, the way of enjoying life are completely different from my world. So, what should i do? turn down her offer or accept it? Sometimes, it is so hard for me to turn down offers given the circumstances. I hate it when people accuse me of anti-socialize person for not going out of the house.

Perhaps, there are some other ways to enjoy life without going to bar or club at night just for chit chatting or dancing for the whole night. Well, some people may argue with me if I said, drinking is bad. Well, it is! heh, don't argue with me. Everyone has their own opinions for this matter.

Whatever it is, hopefully, this weekend will be a peacefully weekend just like a new chapter of wonderful weekend without doing nasty things. Thanks for reading. Give me your opinions under the comment section below because I would really appreciate it. Thank yaw.

Yet Again

Hi people,

It has been a long time since I wrote for my last blog, before I hopelessly falling deep to laziness to write any and delete all my old blogs. As usual, nothing interesting here, just pouring whatever from my brain and heart.
Well, I am thinking to start a new fresh blog and with nowadays technology, it is much easier to update, by means, no need for laptop, a tablet will do.

Yes, I am having a lot of difficulties today, it is so hard for me and I cannot breath properly. Every time I hesitate for a second, my heart beat raised and cause me afraid, scared, nervous, nausea and everything. Truthfully, I got my result for this semester examination and the grades are so bad even I cannot admit it myself. I tried to think positively if by chance, they were wrong when key in the data, but I guess not. I failed one paper which is a shock truth for me. My entire life, I never failed in examinations, not even one, but this time, I failed. I wonder, what did I do to get those results mostly less than 70% in grade. I wonder, if this is a punishment for me, for not taking everything seriously and having fun all the time. Yeah, normally people always said they were having a lot of fun whenever their grades all low. I did having fun, as I remembered, the 'fun' that I had were all at the same level from previous semesters. I am speechless.

I am not going to blame everyone  for now, I don't have anyone around me. I know it is my fault, having all those things happened right in front of my eyes. I just felt embarrassed with people and myself. How should I tell people about this whenever they ask. I believe, everything that happen must have reasons. As for now, I will keep thinking and thinking until I reflect myself.